chasing shadows

Saturday
5 November 2011
20:05 PM

I'm all alone.all by myself, in the cold raining dark night-listening to Adele-Someone like you. I don't even know what this feel, it's feel like i'm losing another part of myself. So fast and quick things around me turn to change, even the weather stop being warmth to me. I'll be approaching the same day as the years before but those feeling no longer the same and will never be the same. Now, I'm all alone. Sometimes, when i woke up and take a look into the mirror, there is a feeling that i can't anymore recognize the man inside the mirror. So much trouble i cause, so much heart i have broke, so much things i had wasted. Everyday i will keep chasing all the time that lies behind me, hoping that i could turn the time and fix those causes i had made.It is like you chasing your own shadow, you can see it but u will never get to it. Honestly, i really miss those days when i was still in high school-when all your friends were beside you, when you make mistake  everyone can easily forgive u. I miss those days when i was in Foundation Centre, all the memories seems to fade away, all the joy seem to vanished and the people i know before change so quickly. If only can i turn to past, i wish i would never grow up to see all the friendship went apart, all the relationship broke apart cause i know that it is really hurt, real hurt. Maybe no one can see the wound, but deep inside it is tearing me apart. Rewinding those time, i was a man or guy which whenever he go his friend will always be beside him.When things become difficult, his friend will always be for him. For now, i am indeed a loner. I walk alone and always #ForeverAlone.

To all my friend;
Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha,
Indeed i miss those time we spent together but seems like everyone of us have our own path, our own future-to-build. Thus, i wish you succeed in making your way. Guess from now, i will strive alone.
Good luck team.